I want to be smarter.

Hi, this is a bit of a rant about myself and a cry for help. I'm a 15 year old and I feel so stupid. I'm a homeschooled student that hasn't received the best education because my parents weren't that involved but I'm not going to blame them throughout this post. This is my responsibility.

It's been getting a bit worse because my mental health hasn't been great and this is affecting my memory and I'm finding it hard to spell simple words. I think I only adapted to many things through instinct and patterns.

With my mental health issues I haven't been interested in reading, focusing on school work, or anything that could benefit me.

My sleep has also been an issue. I'm a caretaker of 10 ten cats and a dog I don't want, but I don't want my mom to suffer from back pain. I also haven't been able to exercise.

I'm a straight A student with a 4.0 GPA, which is shocking. However, I'm not retaining anything. Either I'm not focusing enough or they cram quite a bit.

I'm tired of turning to my friends or to pop music (I'm an avid Gaga fan) just to escape from this, but I want to change. I don't know how, but I surely will.

I just want to know if you guys have some advice. I could use it! Thanks!

Submitted June 17, 2019 at 06:58AM by BornRegular http://bit.ly/2wVTMYU