I have seen a lot of criticism towards students who don't like the school system. Often, the response is something akin to the knowledge you get out of school makes up for you not liking it. Will the knowledge that I gain make up for the fact that I come home and do nothing but lie in my bed and often cry because I'm so burnt out and exhausted that I can't bring myself to do anything else? When I am sitting in class, I get so uncomfortable for over an hour that I stretch my legs around and sometimes pull muscles. I also scratch at my forearms with mechanical pencils sometimes to get through the school day because I can't handle the constant stream of information and information and information and information and memorizing and memorizing and memorizing and memorizing. I don't want to sound like an awful and lazy student, but is the knowledge that I gain really going to make up for all this? I am scared that I am just a lazy, dumb student because school makes me miserable, even outside of school, and since good students can handle the constant flow of information but I can't, that means that I'm just being lazy and selfish. When I lie down and cry, I cry more because I'm not studying, and no matter how hard I try, I can't bring myself to leave my bed, and I'm worried that this is just me being lazy. I would say that I am overwhelmed and burnt out and it's severely getting to my mental health, but I'm scared that it just translates to me being a horrible student. I try to toughen up so badly but then I end up hurting myself or someone else. I don't know what to do. I'm a bad student and I don't have a right to complain so I think this whole rant just exposes exactly how bad of a student I am. I have ADHD and autism, and depression. That's just extra information, not an excuse. The worst part is that I don't think the general public school system works for me, and I feel so evil saying that. Again, the answer is to just toughen up, but I've tried I've tried I've TRIED so hard and it hurts me so badly and I don't know what to do anymore because I am a weak student and don't have a right to complain but here I am complaining and I'm so scared and confused
Submitted May 13, 2026 at 09:19AM by JungleDwellinDeadGuy https://ift.tt/FDtBHms