Everyone has been telling me the same thing, lecturing me and scolding me and telling me that I'm not trying hard enough. However, I have put my uttermost best in all my subjects and all my plans and schedules, I am just too passionate about my art. Every class that I'm in, I think about drawing. I want to be an artist but my parents don't approve, my teachers side-eye me, everyone around me doesn't understand this unexplainable feeling of stress that goes in and out of my life. I have tried and I have asked for help, and all I have gotten is the same thing. I am practically just prone to getting stressed easily. (I go to an early college highschool, where i take both highschool classes and college classes).
My school life is a mess, my home is, everything. I have tried meditation, planning, and scheduling, counseling, praying, sleeping, eating more healthy things, taking medication and vitamins, exercising every day, drinking water, taking cold showers even. It's just that I already know what I want to do, I am trying to start my art business, and I just need my space and time. I just hate that I already know what I want to do, but no one, nothing gives it the attention and space it needs.
I sound a little angry, and that is because I tried so much and nothing worked out because everything is mandatory and I can't completely focus on all my priorities because I will start prioritizing one thing over another, I tried so hard to have everything stabilized, and I also tried to do things step by step. My dad tells me that I don't accomplish anything in life and that I'm just practically useless. I am the "spoiled child". I feel useless, my life is completely useless to me right now. I don't know what to do anymore. All these cliche tips for school and personal life etc. aren't helping me at all, and are just making everything more complex. Sorry if I sound naggy or winey. . .
Submitted March 25, 2020 at 06:24PM by laytakiima https://ift.tt/2JenGhb
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