TLDR at the bottom.
Hello, I am a 14F in 8th grade, and I live in the state of Maryland with one week left of school. With COVID-19, my parents have made me stay home to do distance-learning.
I have been diagnosed with ADHD, and constantly zone out and struggle with work. I have gotten warnings upon warnings to do said work, albeit nothing was enough to bring my motivation up. I have insomnia, and struggle to sleep well and consistently, causing me to sleep through the whole school day and not attend any of my online classes.
About two months ago, I had a meeting with the principal of the school. We had an hour long discussion about how I can bring my grades up and pass this grade. The start of third trimester, if I had good grades, I would pass to freshman year and get into highschool.
Now, we made an agreement that I would work harder and be more focused. Speaking for itself, clearly I did not meet up to the expectations we had set. I told myself I would finally concentrate, though I did not. It went well in the beginning, with me attending classes, but soon after, I had fallen behind again and lost all care for my education and academic scores.
When I try to do my work at home, I get restless. I feel overwhelmingly bored, and feel the need to move. P.S. I do a thing called Maladaptive-Daydreaming. I have always been a creative and hyper child in my youth, and to this day nothing about that has changed. Starting about a year or two ago, I developed a pacing problem. When I daydream, I get restless, and pace around my entire house for longer than 5 minutes until I either run out of breath, or lose my train of thought— which causes me to retreat back to my laptop and working space. I feel the need to mention that no longer than three minutes after going back to my room, I get up and the cycle repeats.
There is nobody but my grandfather at home to watch over me, which he does not do. He is retired and mainly gardens outside. He also has a plethora of anger issues, so having him helicopter me would not end well.
Recently, I got news from my mother that I would be held back for my grade, I was devastated. I had brought this upon myself, seeing as I had many chances to redeem myself and prove to my educators that I had enough knowledge to pass on to the 9th grade.
At first, I felt like a failure. I was very dissapointed in myself, and became severely depressed. Then, I felt less like a failure, and more bummed out that I would not be graduating with my best friends in the future. That part really took a toll on me, seeing as it had been my dream to graduate happily with my friends whom I have known for years.
I am also very much upset with the fact that I am going to start over this grade and be in a class with new people, which I feel is important to mention that I severely do not like being around. I have met these people before, and I simply do not like them, for reasons that aren’t too important.
I have also been informed that summer school is not an option, and quoting my school, there is nothing that I can do, absolutely nothing.
What I would like to know is, is there any way I will be able to skip a grade in further years so I may be back in the grade I was originally supposed to be in, or even despite what they said, be able to not be held back? I have gotten too many chances before to even have a chance with convincing my teachers this year.
TLDR; One week left of school and retained, no summer school available and would like to know of any way to prevent me being held back, or a way to skip my grade in the future to be back on track in the grade I am supposed to be in.
Submitted May 17, 2021 at 10:36AM by SpinelIsPrecious https://ift.tt/3yiTABp
