I'm going to be absolutely smacked in the face by AS levels, and A levels look horrific. What can I do?

Title sums it all up. My AS levels are soon and I will be hard slapped by them soon. The reality of this is just barely settling in and I feel like I may just go mad. I've always been one to effortlessly succeed when it came to academics so I've never really prepared for failure, as my IGCSE grades were ABCAA for English, Geography, Maths, Biology and Spanish.

I'm currently on the Maths, Biology and English courses, soon taking the AS level tests and I just realized I might as well just stop trying, as I know failure will be waiting for me once the results are here. I've personally never considered this and I now realized how bad of a mistake this is.

I believe most of this is due to the fact that I am a very distracted student, as I absolutely need to be in a class surrounded with people and a professor to learn the subject properly; the entirety of 2020 was virtual, which for me was catastrophic but I managed regardless. Now I notice many of the Maths book 1 topics are extremely foggy no matter how much I review them, which I believe is a result of me being a distracted student. This is important because Book 1 sets the bases for the second and third of further maths, while I'm doing well in statistics and probability, my chances for paper 1 look absolutely grim.

Aside from the venting, what can I really do? I was incredibly stupid and didn't make a plan B, now I'm feeling despair as I'm not sure what comes next after failing my exams. Am I allowed to retake them? Will I be kicked out of the course if I don't show grades worth keeping? As my family struggles with money, is there any way I can get a scholarship without straight AAA'S?

I was stupid, and I'm trying to fix a mistake that may no longer be fixed, but I want to try regardless. Is my future with A levels closed now? I cannot think straight at the moment so please ignore any spelling mistakes. Thank you in advance for any suggestions, any life tips and feedback, constructive criticism will be appreciated.

Submitted October 11, 2021 at 06:54AM by DidHeJustSayThat_ https://ift.tt/3atPonU