Struggling to be motivated at a lower tier university

Hello Reddit,

I am about to turn 20 later this month and wanted to see if anyone here has had a similar experience, as I am depressed about how my life has turned out. Let me rewind to what feels like an eternity ago, when I was aged 13 I had everything going for me, smart, athletic, a wealthy family, friends and a future. I had the highest grades in the school barely trying, and had difficulty understanding how people had trouble in school, I always knew I was special, but didnt realize how special. The headmaster at the school, after giving me most of the awards recommended I get intelligence testing so I went to a physiologist and got IQ testing and aptitude testing. He said my results were rarer than 1 in 100000 and I could do anything I wanted easily, I scored 158 on IQ and it only accurately tested up to 160 (4 SD) and 99.9 percentile aptitude in every category, I also had a photographic memory and a way of thinking greater than 99.99 % of all adults. The physcologist said my intelligence was such that I could go straight into university and be top of the class at age 14/15, and could easily be the top of any field in the world by 18/19. I won national academic contests with no preparation or effort. At this time I was reading a book a day of university level material books in various topics after sports practice. I imagined at my age I would have changed the world with my intelligence, be a star athlete and have found the love of my life. I want to make this short so in essence I did not try whatsoever in school, still got 90s in IB diploma and top percentile in SAT, but got bad recommendations from teachers due to my narcissistic attitude because I knew I was far smarter then them. I got my acceptances and only got garbage ones like Berkely, Upenn, Brown, Chigago, etc, and was borderline suicidal. I didnt get into Harvord or a T14, school like I deserved. I ended up going to a school thats barely t100. Im in third year, havent been to class once and have a mix of As/Bs, but I refuse to study or try because I cant stand the thought of where I am, I should be with the greatest minds in the world, changing humanity, but am with low IQ inbreds who have to study to pass our biochem degree. I have become a recluse and only leave the room to go to sports practice and to get food. I cant stand to interact with people who are under 160 IQ. Meanwhile I am a mediocre athelte, barely made varsity and can only get girls who are 6-7 rating despite being very rich. I was given everything and have failed myself and my parents. I dont know what to do and just sit in my room watching videos and becoming mentally ill, wasted my talent and life. Also my writing style has become abysmal, when I was 14 I won many creative writing contests and my teachers said I could become a top writer in any field due to my creativity and incredible style, now I write like a degenerate.

Thanks, SeverelyRetarded.

Submitted October 09, 2016 at 05:57PM by Severelyretarded http://ift.tt/2d5BvvO