I’m more or less a high school dropout and I really want to start going again but I don’t know how

Back in November of 2019, at 12 years old I stopped properly attending school for a reason that’ll take too long to explain. In these past three years, I don’t think I’ve sat down and focused on my studies like a typical student my age even once. I remember never focusing or learning anything when online classes were going on, I used to skip them all the time, and because I had no other option I ultimately cheated my way through all exams. When face-to-face classes started I remember not understanding a thing my teacher was teaching, or anything in the textbook because almost every word was something I’d never learned before. I Tried So Hard to focus and listen to what my teachers were talking about but it felt like they were babbling something incomprehensible, I literally could not help but space out. In mid 2022 I entirely gave up, I have not touched a book or even once contemplated going to school since. I puked on my academic worth these past three years & have literally become dumber than I was before, it's become hard for me to even comprehend sentences while reading because of how long I’ve spend without practicing it. I’m now 15, 2023 is starting and my peers are gonna start 11th grade soon and my knowledge is nowhere near theirs. I desperately want to start studying and going to school again but I have no idea how. The only ways seem to be getting held back in 10th grade (it's confusing but my principal's aware of my situation and managed to help me get promoted to higher classes without me having to take any exams) or actually picking up where I left off and going back to 7th grade. I want to finish school and go to college to major in graphic design because I like it. But I was so dumb and now it's gonna take so long to get back on track. I don't know what to do. I'm so lost, stuck and miserable. It's now become my dream to be a normal kid who studies and graduates school but I just don’t know how to go at it.

Submitted January 14, 2023 at 02:19PM by jennietheworld https://ift.tt/kd8J4AM