I'm 23, failed at completing my college courses multiple times, never attended highschool, and got my GED the day I turned 16. Now, I'm stuck living with roommates at a deadend job and struggling with the rising cost of living. So, after a few years of self-loathing over not being able to pursue education, I'm having second thoughts.
I am.. Remedial at best with math. I was diagnosed with Dyscalculia at 13, so it feels incredibly hard to learn anything regarding numbers. Past that, crippling social problems that turn presenting in classrooms, for example, into skipping it for a panic attack in the bathroom. Combine it with constantly being sick and depressed, and college became a problem for me. Managing a learning disorder, ASD, Type 1 Diabetes and severe depression just wasn't possible for me at the time.
But at the time, I was living with my family and didn't have to carry my own weight, so all my time could've been dedicated to my education. Alas, I still failed repeatedly, and now I'm thinking about juggling both my job and college. Am I crazy? How am I supposed to do that?
I'm not confident in my intelligence, I'm still depressed (just more functional), I can't live without my job, and I already haven't been able to keep my health in check. I'm just not sure how I can improve my life situation in doing this, if I can't guarantee myself as smart enough or healthy enough to pass a math class.
I guess I'm asking for inspiration, motivation, and some kind of reassurance that I can find a way through this. I don't want to be financially insecure my whole life, and I want to be able to prove to myself that I'm capable of more than this.
Submitted October 30, 2023 at 02:14AM by convertiblebender https://ift.tt/ohil3bj
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