I am not allowing myself to be happy with good grades and it’s becoming a serious problem, I need help.

For context, I am a 17 year old student who is gonna be attending his last year of high school in 2024.

For one of my subjects I was able to do a Grade 12 subject early, to make more time for other subjects next year.

The official, finalised, and moderated results for that subject were released today, and I got an A+

Good right?

Not exactly, see the way that subject is programmed is that there are three assessments with different % weighting over the course of 1 semester. For 70% of the subject I got an A+, and for the remaining 30% I got an A.

My teachers assured me for that 30% assessment it was an A+ level. Instead, it got moderated down by the education board to an A. Which by all means, is a great grade, I mean it doesn’t matter right? It was still an A+ overall.

But it just eats me up inside for some reason. I know what my standard is, and I wasn’t able to achieve it. I was hoping to merit, and I know I was so close too, but it didn’t happen.

Yet even so, I still got such a great grade, it’s not like I failed, so why am I so pressed and discontent with it. My family is overjoyed but I don’t see any reason to be happy over almost meriting. Even though I should be!

I just don’t think it’s a very healthy mindset to have and I recognise that. But I can’t stop thinking that I could have done better overall.

Am I putting too high expectations on myself? How do I stop thinking like this and allow myself to be happy over great grades. I really need some advice so that I actually don’t think like this in Grade 12.

Submitted December 17, 2023 at 04:16PM by MadLadsReturn https://www.reddit.com/r/education/comments/18ku685/i_am_not_allowing_myself_to_be_happy_with_good/?utm_source=ifttt