Im currently in 11th grade at an elite day/boarding private school and i hate it. Im neurodivergent(ADHD, autism, dyscalculia) and i am not getting proper support. We have trimesters at my school and the new trimester just started last week. Im underplaced in two classes and im good at english but 9th and 10th grade were rough years mentally for me and my 10th grade english teacher was just so out of it in general he didnt even mind moving me up to honors. Im also having a lot of issues with structure in classes because in these lower classes and even one honors class im in the teachers only teach for 30 minutes and then you do whatever you want for the rest of class(the classes are an hour and a half) and its just super understimulating for my ADHD and causes me physical and mental discomfort due to being on an ADHD stimulant that works on making me stimulated but im not stimulated at all. I asked the school if they could move my schedule to classes where I might find more structure because in my honors economics class the teacher does exactly what i describe and im getting nothing out of it and I asked to move to the other teacher who runs a better class environment and also asked to move into a bigger english class(mine is only 8 kids and we just hangout) so i can actually learn stuff and be productive with my time. The school refused to move my classes saying "we dont do this at our school"and only switched 2 electives and one they tried to discourage me from adding to my schedule because it is an academic elective and they said "you cant do another academic elective if you have a bad grade in math"(mind you this was a mythology class) but the only other option was PE. I then looked into dual enrollment courses at a local community college and emailed the school if i can take them but again they said "we dont do this at our school". Im really frustrated that the school is not giving me proper support and not giving any concern about my learning needs but that is only one big issue.
Im autistic and ive struggled socially my whole life. I was able to make friendships and elementary school but they never really stuck and then I came to my current school in 6th grade and made many friends that year. As the years went on i got bullied very severely and now i have legitimately no friends. I made a video on an alt tik tok account telling people how weird my school was and talking about the international students who pay 90k to go to my school but someone found it and exposed it to the whole school and I am currently at odds with my schools whole russian speaking community as I stated in the video that they were "strange" and "materialistic" and "chasing the miami lifestyle". I heavily regret making the video and I handled the situation maturely but the schools perception of me has become more negative. People are asking me about it and poking fun at it and I am currently getting more negative attention. Every day is just hell I have to be by myself and theres no one to talk to because all the kids in my classes care about is partying, steroids, cars, vaping and drugs because of the low course rigor. Im in one higher level class which is IB global politics which i am very passionate about and did it because I am planning on going to a politics-focused college and I want to major in that. The teacher is extremely demanding and calls me "lazy" and says "i do not follow directions" because it is hard for me to do work and i am always extremely stressed due to constant medication changes and bullying and he called my parents cause he says i am "too smart for an 88% in his class". All the kids in the class are extremely smart, dedicated, and independent and I am the only one who does not have a job, drivers license, or any other advanced classes. The pressure on me is insane and I do not think i can manage it and he is also giving us out of school assignments that pretty much require you to have your own car. I am extremely overwhelmed and lonely and i dont even do my work because I just sit in my bed and think or play video games to cope with the school, medication, and loneliness stress though my parents think im just being lazy. I thought a lot about it and I decided i cannot at my current school.
There is a public school in my city that is decent and even though I am not zoned for it I have found out ways to get in. I discussed it with my parents and they said things like "you wont be able to handle it " and "youll get punched in the face" and "none of the teachers can help you" meanwhile the public schools give a lot of support to neurodivergent students like me. The school is also mostly just middle class or upper middle class and wealthy kids who dont want to go to private school and most of them are very academically focused and get into good colleges. I talked to a few kids there before and they seem much nicer than most kids at my school and say they love it at the school. I really believe i need a change and i want to step into the real world and not my shallow private school bubble which is hurting my confidence and may harm my ability to socialize with a lot of people in the future. The biggest part is is convincing my parents who said they will discuss it and ask my psychologist who worked in the school system about it but last time I wanted to switch to my zoned public school that isnt as good he said it would not be good but that was more than year ago when i was unmedicated, mentally unstable, and immature. Good thing is my psychiatrist is heavily encouraging my parents to take out of my current school and will probably be fully on board. I really want to go to public school and i do have my obvious concerns but I want to do what is better for me.
Submitted December 06, 2025 at 12:15PM by strongdenisovan877 https://ift.tt/Eh46csX
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