Guilt about bad grades.

I did badly in school and my A levels (the last two years of of school in the UK). Mostly C’s and and B’s at GCSE, and a C and E at A level.

The reason I feel guilty and angry is I KNOW I could’ve done better. My target grades were straight A’s in school, but I had my head in the clouds and never studied. Not once. I handed in assignments last minute when I could’ve taken pride in my work and made it the best it could possibly have been. In college I found the content of classes slightly more difficult, but I still did well in class assessments (A’s and B’s consistently). However I gave up studying psychology because I didn’t like writing essays, and I was taken off of the maths course because I failed the mock exam. I never studied during this time either. If I had an idea of what I wanted, and if I studied hard I could’ve done very well. I’m always beating myself up about it because it’s impacted badly upon my life; it’s limited my university options, it’s made my CV look less impressive, and it’s made be feel like I’ve wasted my entire (FREE) education.

Was anyone else in a similar situation? How did you overcome it?

Submitted January 29, 2020 at 08:31AM by masochist_nun https://ift.tt/2Gxey5V