Am I too stupid for a science-based degree?

Okay where to start.

I live in the UK and have had a few jobs working within the NHS, the most notable being for an NHS trust ambulance service as part of an emergency crew.

Loved the work but hated the patient-facing aspect I've always been hugely unconfident and unsure of myself through fear of being seen as stupid.

I decided to shake things up and try to go to university - I'd always wanted to prove I was smart enough to get a degree, but I was shaken up thinking about an NHS degree becaue of the level of patient-facing life -or-death responsesibility I'd have.

So I decided to go for something safe...... Graphic Design!

I started my first year at uni in Sept 2019, then 6 months later Covid shut everything down!

The fact that Covid came and shut down all of these non-essential industries and left so many people out of work has completely transformed the job market and I feel that it will be that way for many years to come.

I live alone and so have spent most of this time in complete isolation and I've realised that Graphic design just isnt that important. The only thing that seems worth perusing right now was what I originally wanted - which was a NHS-related degree (before I came so unsure of myself and insecure).

Now I am full of anxiety thinking that I am wasting my time for a degree in a dead industry and in fact I should be studying to work back in the NHS instead!

I keep finding myself drawn to the Biomedical Science degree course becaue not only does it seem very interesting, it's helpful! I feel like an introvert like me could thrive somewhere where I'm making a difference yet not necessarily patient-facing.

Now the big question is, am I too stupid for the degree? I've always thought i was stupid because i was always told that i was stupid and that I'd only amount to being a burger-flipper at McDonalds (no disrespect).

I did my GCSEs in 2005/6 so have English Lit/Lang, Double Science, Health and Social Care Graphics... then I went to night college when I was 26 to get my Maths GCSE too!

I've recently (at 31) been formally diagnosed with dyslexia, so maybe that's what myself and others thought was so "stupid" about me all along?

I'm aware that people may not read this, I feel like I just needed to type it out. Isolation is messing with my self-esteem, self-worth and general judgement.

Thanks anyway

Submitted January 10, 2021 at 10:08AM by Hayz666 https://ift.tt/3q3yZfB