finishing middle school at 18-19, what should i do?

as title says, i(15F) going to be finishing middle school at 18-19 years old

due to the pandemic i didnt go to school for three years, which was all my middle school years, im currently in the 7th grade and just actually realized this, was having a coversation with some friends and they mentioned id need a scholarship, not sure if it depends but where im from (mexico) but they didnt let me even skip a single year despite my age,

now, my main purpose for this question is the fact that my main life goal is to move to america, looking at san diego, since im more fluent in english than spanish (racially/ethnically fully chinese but nationality wise mexican) and that just to me feels like itd ruin my chances of any scholarship since i cant excell at school cause of it, so now just wondering if there is even anything i can do

some more context for school situation, many reasons facture into why i didnt go for so long but mainly that my old school shut down their middle school, what i was supposed to be advacing onto, next was there wasnt a cure for covid yet, and mainly the fact my mom sees online school as not real school, was originally going to be shoved back in 6th since half my year was online but glad i wasnt,

sorry for the word vomit this whole part of my life genuinely just makes me beyond upset to speak about calmly, but really do want some help, tried to focus on the more like useful information rather my emotions, thanks for reading :)

Submitted November 28, 2023 at 04:01PM by suitsaeran https://ift.tt/VChXlm3