I hate the course I am on now, but I can't leave it, how do I go about gaining the motivation to achieve in the course?

Hi everyone, I hope your day is going well, and I hope this post is suited for the sub.

So a bit of background, I'm from the UK, and in college, I studied games design. I'll be honest, in the first year, I didnt put the time in. But on my final year, I LOVED it, and I ended up getting Distinction grades for both years.

However, I had many arguments with my mum about going to uni, as I wanted to continue the course I had gained all these skills in. She wanted me to do Computer Science, arguing that dreams dont become reality, and that I could just practise Games Design at home, which comes to my main point.

Motivation.

I have a form of OCD called Pure O, alot of intrusive thoughts, and a very bad time, which hits me with depression and sucks away my motivation. I needed the uni course as a way to have a grasp on my motivation. I LOVED the course, but I hated myself, so my motivation to achieve was low, but just like my last year of college, with the deadlines and the push needed, I would be able to get up off my ass and do work.

My mum didnt buy that, and now I do Computer science, and I cant describe how much I hate it. My motivation is at 0, and even with the deadlines, I just..dont care, I have that feeling of not wanting to fail, but I hate the course so much that I just cant IMAGINE myself doing anything with it. This is all for my mum, not for me.

Even so, I need the motivation to pass, so I ask those who are doing courses they dont enjoy, how do you create the motivation needed to learn something you despise?

Thank you

Submitted February 17, 2021 at 04:26AM by Idolikememes https://ift.tt/3qsmue0