Shall I pursue a career in psychology considering the variables? (21, UK, F)

So when I was younger I had a rough childhood. Someone with no confidence living in a violent home during my GCSEs, I left high school with next to nothing and ending up getting a btec in media and journalism from my local college. I then managed to get into uni (Salford university). It’s a public university in the uk and isn’t regarded as great at all. However, I managed to graduate with a 2:1 in English lit & Film - which I’m really happy about considering how much I was suffering during my time there. Anyway, I still suffer with ptsd, depression, you know the rest but I don’t want to be a sob story anymore. I have realised I want to become a psychologist. When I had this epiphany recently I found it hard to take myself seriously. A girl with an average uni degree from a uni that isn’t held in high regards who has never even studied psychology before? Yeah right, dream on. Also, I have barely any work experience - however, I have a few retail interviews coming up soon which I’m looking forward to so hopefully that’ll give me some self esteem. I’m a covert stammerer too, so working is hard to do when dealing with a stigmatised speech impediment. I’m trying to manage this though. I got fired from my first job when I was 17 as a waitress and that took a huge knock to my confidence. I haven’t even told some of my closest friends about this because I’m so ashamed. So many people have been fired and don’t let it define them but I still carry the shame. It was definitely due to my dissociation anxiety, and stammer. They “let me go” but never told me why. Luckily, My parents have always been able to help me out financially, which is something I’m very grateful for as I know many people do not have that. But I want to become financially independent, I want to make my way without feeling the crippling guilt of relying on my parents. You know? Anyway.. I want to do a conversion psychology course. I know financially this will be a stretch but I know it’s something I want to do and I can do as all I need is a bachelors degree. I’ve always loved psychology and have been fascinated by the field since I was a young child. I know with the life I’ve endured and the mental health issues I’ve suffered with - I would make a damn good psychologist. I would put my heart and soul into it. I’m just lacking self belief. Despite being in tune with my emotions (as much as I like to believe I am), I deal with mental health issues and a stammer that’s holding me back. Is it worth pursuing this career with these issues? A stammer is something that’s very stifling. I realise I don’t have to be on the forefront, I can do something within the field that doesn’t heavily rely on speech maybe? Luckily we’re living in a rapidly more accepting society so hopefully my stammer won’t be as much of an issue as I think. Another issue is I won’t be retaining a msc in psychology from a prestigious school. You know? I know other people my age who will have a BA, and a masters in psychology from better schools than me that will have a higher chance of pursuing their dreams. I’m wondering if anyone could give me any advice? I understand you don’t have to follow the traditional path to achieve your goals and that I also don’t need a degree from a top school. However, this is a very competitive field.. so I’m debating if it will be worth it.

Submitted February 16, 2021 at 10:49PM by annadowneyx https://ift.tt/3jXQTyE