I need your advice.

so, I fucked around a lot with my studies.

right after graduating, I went to study fine arts and even if I think it’s something that fits me the most, I was immature and definitely not ready for living alone and going to uni.

next year, I went to study japanase in another city and I found it interesting as well (and I was rly good at it) but there were problems with my dorm (and my mental health) and I dropped out again.

see, I know not everything requires a degree but I rly want one. ik I might not end up in these fields, but it’s a goal I have in mind. I don’t know which uni I should go back to. I don’t have much time to decide rn.

my feelings are mixed. I’m attracted by the city in which I studied the last time. I love literally everything abt it, it feels like home. I RLY want to live there. but. art is something that’s a lot closer to me and sg I always did and I feel super guilty for not finishing my art degree. I’m so jealous of ppl who attend that uni that it makes me want to drown myself. still, it takes hours to get to that city, and I just didn’t like living there, it felt depressing and not inspiring to be there. it takes 2x the time to get there. plus, I will have to do entrance exams again to get in. and wait till september. I have to decide bcs next february, I can go back to the japanase university and if that’s the case, I will have to quit my job at the end of this month.

I rly need your help. thank you if you read it.

Submitted December 27, 2024 at 12:34AM by vanillash4ke https://ift.tt/VnKySLE