I don’t where to begin and it’s mentally draining,

I’m 16. First and foremost I’ve been a very sheltered girl. So I think that might have contributed to the way I think and do things. Also I’m a true reflection of my parents but have the willingness to change. I don’t want to be like them. So let’s begin. Firstly I grew up with no sense of my making my own decisions. every decision was made my parents which makes me the stupid girl I am today making the wrong decisions. Im also really bad at getting grades. Never had the emotional support from my constant deoression which is highly likely to be depression as i show similar traits of it but I cannot go to a oroffesional in order tk get checked/diagnosed because of my very toxic and dysfunctional family. Moreover, Im homophobic, racist, again the reflection of my parents, being brought up in a one viewpoint way. I want to change that. I seriously do. I want to be open minded and ughts and ideas of many things like races religions, LGBTQ’s, and I just want to know that my way isn’t the only way. Not only that but im behind in my school work. I have two months of work to catch up on. How stupid of me.!! Haha. Time management skills? Nope. Next comes the things I want to educate myself on which include geography, politics, history. Well I’m clueless on where to begin. I have soo much things I want to educate myself on and improve on but im confused on where to start and what to do. Im becoming interested into educating myself in a wide variety of things which include politics, health and diet, history, culture, religions and recreational hobbies however I don’t exactly know where to start! I want to learn a lot of things however I understand that our brain only has a limited amount of space. Is there any advice I could be given? I blame my parents who I’m a true reflection off. The talks we have at home has almost been embedded into my mind which makes me think this way. I could say I’m racist, homophobic and against immigrants. However it’s not entirely my fault as again I blame most of this towards my ignorant parents and friends. However it will be my fault if I don’t realise it and don’t change. I’m here looking for advice on how to be more open minded, and not be racist and ignorant. For example should I study different cultures and religion? I seriously need advice!

Submitted February 03, 2021 at 03:05AM by 15andabove https://ift.tt/39F0wi2