I haven't been in education for a few years and now am 19,i feel so overwhelmed getting back into it all :(

I also don't have the best mental health so maybe that's contributing but I feel so overwhelmed and hopeless..! 🥲 I'm not sure where to start but I've posted about this before and know community colleges can help so I am going to join. Which is a big step for me as I was very nervous and obviously felt so behind, and honestly embarrassed. But I want to try to get myself on the best path for me. 😊 I was once in such a dark place mentally and i don't want to go back there. Currently, I feel low alot but also very bored and hopeless lately... I hate this, I am a bit excited for this new path but I guess my mental health has taken over and it's clouded with a grey feeling. :/

I would appreciate any advice!!

Edit: i haven't been home schooled, I stopped attending school at age 12 (almost 13) & the following years I just enjoyed not being in school I guess like most children at that age would.. But something deeper was going on, when I was turning 13, one of my parents (don't share for privacy reasons) passed away in a horrible way to cancer, it all happened so fast (they passed within a few months of the diagnosis) the following years weren't so good for me mentally, and my other parent had mental health problems so couldn't always support me In the best way.

But at 17 I was at my absolute worst with a constant dark feeling every day that I couldn't shake..! Thankfully it went away months ago but I still sometimes suffer mentally like extreme lack of motivation for house work or even basic things. When I was 16, I remember I felt so down about my education situation and I felt 100%hopeless, idk if it was possible depression, or just because i was so young, but I was convinced that's it, I can't have a proper education etc etc.

Through seeing other peoples stories online, I realised I'm not as alone as i felt and this is apparently common. It gave me hope. 😊

But currently i feel so much dread and overwhelmed!! :(

Submitted June 03, 2024 at 10:14AM by pinkflowerprincessx https://ift.tt/Gesmxki