An insisting childhood dream, but It's super theoritical and I have no idea how to deal with it

Just for context, I'm 22 years old female software developer and computer science student. However, since I was 13 I had an accident (long story can't tell it here, but it indicated how awful our education system is) that fired on my a weird and strong passion of building my own elementary school one day. Since then, I collected tons of ideas and thoughts and even 3D designs of the school.. (I thought I maybe have asperger because I spent a lot of time watching videos about how schools around the world look like and building prototypes? Idk why I enjoy that so much) and until now when I think about it I feel adrenaline goes through my entire body (not exaggerating). I thought that when I graduate from high school I'll forget the whole idea.. but surprisingly now I'm in my last year in university and still have that and have a notebook where I write down my ideas.. about literally everything in this school starting from research center and disability-friendly architecture ending with curriculum and extracurricular activities and literally everything in between (like how to make a change in educational disasters like when almost an entire generation in Syria is not going to school or how provide good education to disabled children)

But.. simply I don't know what to do with that really insisting feeling that still comes to my mind for nine years now and I just don't know how to respond to it. I didn't choose the career of education as a college major (I'm not interested in being a teacher or working in a sucking typical edu system) and I actually love my current major (computer science) so much. Any advices because I'm entirely lost and have no idea what do or what is the path? Its super foggy dream like is considered it under education or entrepreneurship or management or what exactly?? Where shall I start the whole thing? I know it's not that simple but what makes it super complicated is that I'm not actually interested in education but in this school particularly and.. yeah it sounds weird but I reached a level that I'm confidently sure this idea will probably be stuck in my brain forever.

Is it just a normal feeling that comes to anyone? Any advice or even sharing thoughts will mean a lot for me (not a US citizin)

Submitted November 13, 2020 at 04:28PM by HRM404 https://ift.tt/2IFbWYc