why do I do extremely well Academicly when I want to kill myself andlet my dapression consume me.

I've always wondered why I do so well when I feel like a failure and I think about suicide twice a week. If I try I start failing but if feel like an apsulute failure and let my dipression consume me whole I start doing better. I'm currently ahead of my class but my mental health last year was so bad I was thinking about suicide nearly Daily. So now I'm thinking that I should just throw away my mental health so I can succeed. I know it doesn't sound wise but I want to finish highschool and get somewhere. Plus I'm already slipping back into my dapression I don't really know what to do.

Submitted July 25, 2022 at 09:29AM by thehumblehufflepuff https://ift.tt/cVunyPN