going from As to Cs... coping.. loneliness

Hi everyone first of all I apologize if my post makes you feel mad because I've been pissing everyone off today. Today I took an exam in a new program I joined. I got a 77% which is passing but I've never gotten such a low score in my life. Since I was a kid school has been my life and having good Grade was such a proud moment. i've been a straight As student with some Bs here in there. now that I'm getting sees I feel like shit. I cried today because I got on 77 and several people got mad at me stating that I shouldn't be crying because it makes people feel bad if they got a lower score. I see their point and I know it hurts people but I can't help but cry because I've never gotten a 77.I'm not a mean person and I don't do this to make others feel bad. It's just really hard to adjust from getting 90s to 70s now. now I decided I'm never gonna tell anyone my grades because people just get upset whenever I start crying. to be honest I don't even know what to do anymore I feel like a failure and it's even worse because now I feel lonely. I just feel like no one understands me. It's really hard to see a 77 as an amazing score when your whole life you have gotten 90s to 100s. any advice on what to do. I'm grateful that I'm passing yes but this is a huge change that I'm not used to. Also not to mention that I study 24/7 And not getting the grades i wanr. thank you and please don't judge and if you judge Just keep in mind that I don't do this to hurt anyone. I feel lonely and no single soul understands me

Submitted September 20, 2021 at 04:14PM by EnvironmentalPeace21 https://ift.tt/3lHscri