18 year old whit no study and scared for the future.

To give you an insight about me, i'm 18 years old. I studied car mechanics for 2 years in high school but it quickly became apparent it wasnt suited for me. I did always have a never ending interest for politics and history. But i have a really bad trait: laziness. I procrastinated looking for studies in high school until it was too late. I had to chose on a whim eventually and chose IT in college (wich i initially was fond of) this was during quarentine, and consequently i had a year online school. I quickly found myself procastinating, but i did always deliver my projects on time. Now i didn't think anything of it at the time because i simply thought i did this because of online school, where teachers generally didn't really check up alot and it was hard concentrating. Amid the school year, An incident happend which caused my laptop to not work for 3 weeks. This was a huge blow because i had to deliver a lot of projects at that time. And it was at this time that i completely lost any motivation/interest in the study. I kept procrastinating. I was determined however early on that IT simply wasnt suited for me (my Friends agreed) i knew since march that i was not happy whit the study and wanted to change. But i was Also seriously debating wether i wanted to continue, in the blink of an eye, spring was at my doorstep. The sudden realization that summer was nearby made me sweat. Every day i reminded myself to inform my mentor about my study switch but to no avail. I didn't do it until june. When i finally did it, i was suprised my mentor didn't really guide me in finding something new. But i was still relaxed, this changed when summer vacation started and i received a maill whit my official resignation of my school. I freaked out but this still wasnt an incentive for me to look for a study. Later, in late july, it was really apparent i was in big trouble and started looking for studies. To my horror i couldnt find anything remotely to my interest. I dont want to be too picky ofcourse because of the lack of time but still, i want the right study. Ever since that day i've Just given up on looking. Almost like i gave up on life itself. I need help on finding my interests and the right study. I hope someone could provide me whit that. Or just to talk.

Submitted August 16, 2021 at 02:01PM by gladdim8 https://ift.tt/37QhZCh