Why did my teacher give me this look?

This is about that same 50-year-old teacher who I cried over because she didn't tell me that I was beautiful. The same teacher whom I told that I "liked" her, and we are both females. I was 16. She rejected me and the whole conversation didn't turn out well. She said she was a teacher and that I was way, way too young for her.

I remember when I attended the graduation of the class above me. She already knew then that I "liked" her. I told her two weeks before. My mom and I were standing together and the teacher saw us and she talked to us. She was smiling when she saw us. Everything seemed normal. She talked to my mom and she asked me how my school year went, since I wasn't taking her class that year, asked me what college I was going to, what I wanted to be. Then my mom took a picture of her and me together. Everything seemed alright. But then.....

When it was time for the graduation ceremony inside the church, I was standing in a pew close the center, so that I could see her. She was walking in the procession, and I was looking at her. I was so in love with her. I was floored. I was smiling at her and looking at her like the way people do in movies.

When she made her way in the procession, she was looking at me, but she wasn't smiling. She gave me this look like she wanted to kill me, cremate me, then burn my ashes. We just had this silent moment of just looking at each other, but her look was a look of hatred for me.

That was the last time she ever made eye contact with me. That was the last day that she ever spoke to me. What was that look for? Why did she look at me like she hated me? What happened just an hour prior when she was talking to me and my mom and everything was fine? Was she just pretending in front of my mom and I? Did she still remember what I told her two weeks before? Was she trying to give me a warning that that was the last day she would ever speak to me? I was a junior in high school then, and she ignored me as if I were dead for my entire senior year.

Submitted April 10, 2022 at 04:11PM by Flyaway_5 https://ift.tt/Kws7HYv