What to do and where to go?!

I'm stuck, professionally, I dont really have a diploma and I'm getting "old" (im 39).

I have tried, I started University but I just can't do it, I have strong personality disorder, ADHD and a small autism, I just can't deal with the stress and the how school work, the main things in academics (College or Uni) is time management, stress management and memorization. I never was able to time manage or I have a very different way to memorize because of my mental "problem".

Also, there a lot of it that seem quite "pointless" by just leaning a lot and a lot of information to just barf back on an exam.

Mainly because of my ADHD, I just can't sit in a class for 3 hours, it is also very difficult to be focusing during an exam for 3+ hours, or to not just have memory problem because of the stress and the difficulty to not obsess and be stuck on a question while the brain is spinning "I know it, I know it!" but just can't remember.

Now I have a job, a sucky one, if I want anything better, I need a diploma, that not a question, but even if I start continue my BA, I still have 5 years until I finish part time. I dont think I would be able to do it. I barely was able to manage school itself for one semester.

And let not talk about the management its require to balance job and school, that just seem near impossible, I already barely functional here with a sucky job, I dont have the energy anymore.

So what am I supposed to do, am I just stuck here, until I basically die of old age at the sucky job, just because my brain can't deal with the structure of academics?!

This sucks :(

Submitted July 02, 2022 at 09:13AM by siyans https://ift.tt/rsZkvLD